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May
25, 2004
Steven
Banko, III
A Vietnam Vet on "Supporting the
Troops"
May
24, 2004
Ron
Jacobs
Dan Senor is Safe!
Kurt
Nimmo
Dirty Tricks & TortureGate: the
Missing Taguba Pages
Sam
Hamod
Gen. Zinni: "Wrong War, Wrong
Place, Wrong Time"
Mike
Whitney
The Wedding was a Bomb
Stan
Goff
Open Season on MAMs
May
22 / 23, 2004
Paul
de Rooij
Colin Powell, a Political Obituary
Jeffrey
St. Clair
When War is Swell: Bush and the Carlyle Group
Elizabeth
Weill-Greenberg
Her Son Was Told He Wouldn't See Combat; Now He's Dead: an Interview
with Sue Niederer
Brian
Cloughley
America is Committing War Crimes in Iraq
Saul
Landau
Democracy in Latin America: Great for Investors; Not So Good
for People
Brandy
Baker
Feminists Stand By Their Man: Abortion, Judges and Kerry
Randall
Robinson
Bushwhacked in the Caribbean
Uri
Avnery
The Rape of Rafah
Ben
Tripp
Assume the Worst
Bruce
Anderson
News from Ecotopia: the Truth About the Wine Business
Josh
Ruebner
Why I Burned My Israeli Military Papers
Peter
Wolson, Ph. D.
Exhibitionistic Revenge at Abu Ghraib
Chloe
Cockburn
In Defense of "Troy": What Hector Could Teach Rummy
Linda
Burnham
Sexual Domination in Uniform: an American Value
Adrien
Rain Burke
War of the Necrophiliacs: Spc. Sabrina Harman and Her Corpse
David
Krieger
Charting a New Course for US Nuclear Policy
Ron
Jacobs
Turnaround
Poets'
Basement
Ford, Albert & LaMorticella
May 21, 2004
Ray
Close
The Canards of the Apologists
Christopher
Brauchli
"The Object of Torture is Torture"
Amira
Hass
Darkness at Noon
Jack
McCarthy
Camilo Mejia: Can the Son of a Sandinista Get a Fair Trial from
the US Army?
Bill
Kauffman
Nader v. Bush
Omar
Barghouti
No More Tears for America
Ghali
Hassan
Moral Failure of the "Free World" in Gaza
Christopher
Reed
How the CIA Taught the Portuguese to
Torture
Website
of the Day
Eric Idle on the Bush Administration: Fuck You, So Very Much
May
20, 2004
Andrew
Cockburn
The Truth About Chalabi
Kathy
Kelly
A Visit from the FBI
Niranjan
Ramakrishnan
Brown and Bored of Education in India
Tom
Stephens & John Philo
The War Crimes of Bush, Cheney & Co.
Sam
Bahour / Michael Dahan
Genocide by Public Policy
Robert
Ovetz
Ending the Race for the Last Turtle
Billy
Wilson
The Most Important Thing I Learned at School This Year
Website
of the Day
Rafah Today
May
19, 2004
Elizabeth
W. Corrie
Caterpillar Should Do the Right Thing,
Now
Bill
and Kathleen Christison
The US Can't Win
Vijay
Prashad
For Whom the Polls Toll: the Indian Elections of 2004
Ray
Hanania
Israeli War Crimes: Who to Believe, AIPAC or Amnesty Intl.?
Greg
Moses
Man President Kisses Up at AIPAC
Michael
Gillespie
Who is Kenneth deGraffenried?
Josh
Frank
Homes Destroyed; Death Toll Mounts: But Where's John Kerry?
Gary
Corseri
Out of Iraq and Plato's Cave
Kevin
Alexander Gray
If Malcolm Were Alive
May
18, 2004
Neve
Gordon
The Gaza Debacle
Doug
Stokes
Imperial Policing: Why Abu Ghraib
Shouldn't Surprise Us
Bob
Wing
The Color of Abu Ghraib
Vanessa
Jones
Man on a Leash
Thomas
P. Healy
Chemical Trespass: the Body Burden
Zeynep
Toufe
Torture and Moral Agency: the Soft Bigotry of Low Expectations
Kenneth
Roth
Mistreatment of Detainees in US Custody: a Letter to Bush
Elaine
Cassel
Pre-empting the Bill of Rights: The Other War, One Year Later
Website
of the Day
Truth Against Truth
May
17, 2004
Kurt
Nimmo
The John-John Ticket: Kerry Woos McCain
Laura
Santina
Military Conditioning and Abu Ghraib
Mickey
Z.
With Friends Like These: More Election 2004 Madness
Frederick
B. Hudson
Police Terror: Three Mothers Search for Justice
Shakirah
Esmail-Hudani
Inside Abu Ghraib: the Violence of the Camera
Boris
Leonardo Caro
The Revelations of Mr. W.
Alex
Dawoody
Iraq: From Saddam to Occupation
Victor
Kattan
On Watching the Execution of Nick Berg
Ron
Jacobs
Rumsfeld's Sovereignty Shell Game
May
15 / 16, 2004
Alexander
Cockburn
Green Lights for Torture
Douglas
Valentine
ABCs of American Interrogation: Phoenix Program, Revisited
John
Stanton
Kings of Pain: UK, US and Israel
Ben
Tripp
Torture: a Fond Reminiscence
Brian
Cloughley
Where are You Heading, America? Taking a Closer Look at the Patriot
Act
Justin
E. H. Smith
Islam and Democracy: the Lesson from Turkey
Brandy
Baker
Equal Opportunity Torture: Lynddie England, the Right and Feminism
John
Chuckman
Peep Show on Capitol Hill: Sex, Lies and Videotape
Bill
Glahn
RIAA Watch: Goon Squad
John
Holt
Fencing the Sky
Ron
Jacobs
The Power of Patti Smith
Brian
J. Foley
Why the Outrage Over Abu Ghraib?
Robin
Philpot
Re-writing the History of the Rwandan Genocide
Eric
Leser
The Carlyle Empire
Ray
Hanania
From Abu Ghraib to Nick Berg: There's No Such Thing as a Good
War Crime
Jeff
Halper
Dozers of Mass Destruction
Joe
Surkiewicz
Inside the Baltimore Detention Center
John
Whitlow
Iraq Goddamn
Michael
Leon
Invitation to a Beheading: Why Bush Should Watch the Berg Video
Poets'
Basement
Krieger, Ford, LaMorticella, Smith and Albert
May
14, 2004
Dr.
Susan Block
Bush's POW Porn
Ron
Jacobs
Secret History of the War on Drugs
William
Blum
God, Country and Torture
Michael
Donnelly
The People v. Corporate Greed: A Victory on the North Coast
Niranjan
Ramakrishnan
India Shines
Stephen
Gowans
Building Democracy in Iraq and Other
Absurdities
May
13, 2004
Dave
Lindorff
Where is Kerry?
Colm
O'Laithian
Torture and Degradation: Revenge American Style?
Saul
Landau and Farrah Hassan
Wal-Mart: Scrooge with Hi-Tech Accounting
Practices
Ralph
Nader
An Open Letter to Bush on the Inhumane Treatment of Iraqi Prisoners
Willliam
James Martin
Deir Yassin Massacre Recalled
Marc
Salomon
Reality TV Bites
Forrest
Hylton
Law 'n Order in La Paz: All Quiet
on the Southern Front?
May
12, 2004
Blanton
/ Kornbluh
Prisoner Abuse: Cheney Warned in
1992
Virginia
Tilley
So, Who's to Blame?
Bruce
Jackson
James Inhofe, the Dumbest Senator
of Them All
Thomas
P. Healy
No Enemies: Making Peace with Bert Sacks
Linda
S. Heard
Racism and Ignorance: a Lethal Cocktail in Iraq
Norman
Solomon
Spinning Torturegate
Lisa
Viscidi
The People's Voice: Community Radio in Guatemala
Jack
Heyman
View from the Bay Bridge: Longshoremen Plan Mass Workers March
on DC
Niranjan
Ramakrishnan
Rummy's Reprieve
CounterPunch
Wire
Teamsters Corruption Scandal: Hoffa Exec. Assistant Alleged to
Have Quashed Investigation into Mob Influence
Christopher
Brauchli
Detention Camp, USA
William
S. Lind
Bush's Waterloo?
May 11, 2004
Mark
Engler
On the "Necessity" of Torture
Ray
McGovern
More Troops? A March of Folly
Kurt
Nimmo
Dirty Nukes and Jefferson's Grand Experiment
Mickey
Z.
Less Than Hero
Christopher
Reed
Torture on the Homefront: America's Long History of Prison Abuse
Dennis
Hans
When John Negroponte was Mullah Omar
Bruce
Jackson
Pete Seeger at 85
Mike
Whitney
Killing al Sadr
Simon
Helweg-Larsen
Shrinking the Guatemalan Military
William
A. Cook
The Unconscious Country: Righteous Indignation,
Nakedly Displayed
May
10, 2004
Robert
Fisk
From Hollywood to Abu Ghraib: Racism
and Torture as Entertainment
Wayne
Madsen
The Israeli Torture Template: Rape,
Feces and Urine-Soaked Cloth Sacks
Col.
Dan Smith
The Shame of Abu Ghraib
Joe
Bageant
John Ashcroft, Keep Your Mouth Off My Wife!
Ron
Jacobs
Rummy's Prisongate Blues: Don't Leave Mad; Just Leave
Ben
Tripp
Getting in Touch with Your Inner Savage
Ray
Hanania
Why They Hate Us: Racism, Bigotry and Abuse
Reza
Fiyouzat
"Mishandled" Invasions
Diane
Christian
Images & Abstractions &
Genitals
Website
of the Day
Crushing Iraqi Skulls with Tanks for Sport?
May
8 / 9, 2004
Cockburn
/ St. Clair
Torture: as American as Apple Pie
Adam
Jones
America's Srebrenica: What About the Hundreds of POWs Suffocated
and Shot at Kunduz?
Douglas
Valentine
Who Let the Dogs Out?: Torture, the CIA and the Press
Kurt
Nimmo
Rush Limbaugh and the Babes of Abu Ghraib
Brian
Cloughley
Humpty Dumpty is Falling
Lucia
Dailey
Forbidden Games
Joanne
Mariner
* * * *: Redacting Moussaoui
Mickey
Z.
Please Forgive U.S.? (There Are No Innocent Bystanders)
John
Chuckman
The Thing with No Brain
Doug
Giebel
Someone Knew: There Were No WMDs
Norm
Dixon
How the Bush Gang Exploited 9/11
Sam
Bahour
A Guiding Light Falls on Ramallah
Susan
Davis
Disorderly Conduct as Fine Art
Dave
Marsh
In a Pig's Eye: Alan Lomax, Dead But Still Stealing
Laura
Flanders
Life with Dick and Lynne
Dave
Zirin
Fans Push Spiderman Off Base
Carolyn
Baker
Why I Won't Vote in 2004
Prince
"Ain't No Sense in Voting"
Dr.
Susan Block
Onan for Two: Liberating Masturbation
Poets'
Basement
Smith, Sleeth, Ford, Albert and Saska
May
7, 2004
Human
Rights Watch
10 Prisons; 9,000 Prisoners: US Detention
Facilities in Iraq
Ron
Jacobs
UnAmerican? I Wish It Were So
Robert
Fisk
An Illegal and Immoral War
Ahmad
Faruqui
The 50th Anniversary of Dien Bien
Phu
Alexander
Zaitchik
From Terrell Unit in Texas to Abu Ghraib: Doesn't It Ring a (Prison)
Bell?
Mike
Whitney
The Price of Victory
Norman
Solomon
This War, Racism and Media Denial
M.
Shahid Alam
A Comic Apology
May
6, 2004
Jeffrey
St. Clair
They Did It for Jessica: Smeared with
Shit; Kicked to Death
Kathy
Kelly
May Day in Pekin Prison: Prison Labor
for the War Machine
Werther
The Sunk Cost Fallacy: War as Vegas
Casino Game
Lawrence
Ferlinghetti
Totalitarian Democracy
Robert
Fisk
"Smoke Him": Video Shows Wounded
Men Being Shot by US Helicopter
John
Janney
Torturing the Way to Freedom?
Christopher
Ketcham
Outlaw Heterosexual Marriage Now!
Alan
Farago
Dead Oceans: So Long, Thanks for the Fish
Sam
Hamod
Bush on Arab TV: Worthless and Demeaning
James
Brooks
Sullen Spring
William
S. Lind
On the Brink of Defeat in Iraq
May
5, 2004
Maj.
Gen. Antonio M. Taguba
Complete US Army Report on Abuse of
Iraqi Prisoners
Kathleen
and Bill Christison
Kerry: a Lost Cause for Progressives?
Will
Youmans
Deal with the Devil: a Palestinian
Zionist and the End of the World
Patrick
B. Barr
Terrorists R Us: the Powerful are Exempt from the Label
Lawrence
Magnuson
Nightline's All-American Morgue
Greg
Moses
Pocketbook of Denuded Ideals
Niranjan
Ramakrishnan
Tormenting Prisoners, Torturing
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Lee
Ballinger
Cinco de Mayo and Unity
Gilbert
Achcar
Bush's Cakewalk into the Iraq Quaqmire
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Steve
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True Lies: the Use of Propaganda
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May
25, 2004
War
and Death in a Bumpersticker World
A
Vietnam Vet on "Supporting the Troops"
By
STEPHEN T. BANKO, III
I came home from my war in 1970 with
a body still riddled with shrapnel and mind still muddled with
a toxic cocktail of rage and guilt and fear. I tried with every
fiber of my being to become myself again but always knowing that
I would never be that person again. I would never again think
the world would spin off its axis if Timon lost to Canisius.
Nor would I ever again believe that a beer in the South Shore
Beach Club in Angola would cure everything that ailed me. As
much as I wanted to be me, the face staring back at me from the
mirror was someone far different from what I saw before Vietnam.
Lying in a hospital bed surrounded by boys whose bodies had been
broken and battered will do that. So will lying in ambush and
killing unsuspecting Vietnamese. So will the constant pain and
the fatigue and the filth and the loneliness of war. Once you've
been exposed, you're a carrier of that virus forever. Innocence
gets stripped away from your soul with all the pain of skin being
peeled off your body. Any inherent goodness you might have possessed
leaks out of your spirit.
I tried to pray my way out
of my confusion and my anger and my pain. But those prayers were
more a nostalgic genuflection to simpler prayers that asked God
for a new catcher's mitt or a new pair of Converse All-Stars.
I didn't really believe God would answer a killer's prayers.
I stopped when I became terrified that deafening silence that
greeted my prayers might, indeed, be the voice of God.
One day a few weeks after I
returned to be a civilian, a husband and a father in one fell
swoop, the mail carrier showed up at my door with a package.
In it was a Silver Star. The Silver Star is the nation's third
highest award for heroism and it was awarded to me by a mail
carrier. When I told my father, he was livid. If you got that
in my war, he said, you'd have a parade down Main Street. But
that was the kind of war we fought: individual battles where
mean survival was victory. As much as I was counseled to forget
about the war and get on with my life, and as much as I really
want to do so, each of us who fought in Vietnam was spiritually
captured by it, and most remain to this day prisoners of their
own war. In my eyes, the war was over. In my mind it was over
too: over and over and over again in a continuous loop.
In all that confusion, I felt
a need justify what I'd done. You can't just walk away from something
like that without some sense of ratification. We looked to our
peers but found none. We looked to our country and found even
less. So we were left to explain our sacrifice to ourselves.
In that muddle, I latched on to the immutable notion that what
I did was right and just because the cause was right and just.
I wrote angry essays defending American involvement in Vietnam.
I castigated those who tried to cast aspersions on returning
veterans. I engaged politicians who refused to vote for more
jobs and more benefits for Vietnam veterans. I incurred the wrath
of UB students and professors with my vigorous defense of the
war. I made my support for the war literally who I was. So when
public affairs television producers like Marilyn Stahlka were
looking for hawks to take on the vocal left wing of the Vietnam
veterans' movement, they found me lurking at every turn--only
me.
I was trotted out with maddening
frequency to engage two or three anti-war veterans at least once
a month. Ms. Stahlka seemed more like my agent than a producer.
I would take on Gail Graham on one program and go against an
old St. Bonaventure classmate, Bob Godlove on another. I would
rip into them questioning everything from their fidelity to fellow
veterans to their loyalty to their country to their worth as
human beings. I saved my most venomous vitriol for Robert Beyer,
whose son Bruce had fled to Canada to avoid the draft. Bob Beyer
was one of the kindest and gentlest human beings I would ever
encounter before or after Vietnam and my attacks on him remain
a humiliation to me to this day. I don't know whether I was more
defeated by the simple soundness of Mr. Beyer1s arguments or
his gentle demeanor in the face of my terrible personal attacks
on him.
Many years later, when I admitted
my alcoholism to myself and sought treatment, a psychiatrist
asked me if I drank because of Vietnam or if I thought about
Vietnam when I drank. Today, I ask myself a similar question:
did I drink because of the guilt of surviving my war or did I
drink because of the lies I was telling myself in defending the
war?
Whatever the answer, sobriety
and self-awareness helped me let go of my role as apologist for
the Vietnam War. To accept my role in the war, I recalled those
wonderful kids turned into men by war and turned into heroes
in death. I recalled all the things we didn't fight for and accepted
how bravely we fought for each other. I recognized that I could
hate the war and still love the warrior, even though many in
my generation lacked the intellectual sophistication to do so.
I still wonder if I could have
done things differently in Vietnam. I wonder if I could have
been better at protecting my men. But what I also wonder is how
many kids died while I was promoting their need to be in Vietnam?
Three long years passed while I was locked into the sad notion
that we best supported the troops by being champions of their
mission and cheerleaders for their cause. How many more boys
were killed from 1970 to 1973? Did I have complicity in their
deaths? These questions weigh as heavily today as did memories
of the war yesterday.
The rhetoric I hear today sounds
like an echo from my painful past. We are being told that we
have to 'stay the course.' It's necessary for some Americans
to die for Iraqi democracy. The biggest lie of all is that it
is unpatriotic to oppose further suffering, further maiming and
further death in Iraq.
We now live in a bumper sticker
world where the only truths we accept are those simplistic enough
to fit on an 18-inch adhesive placard. More and more I seem to
be seeing 'Support Our Troops' stickers. That is advice well
taken by me and by everyone. Support our troops indeed--bring
them home now.
Stephen T. Banko III was awarded two Silver Stars, four
Bronze Stars, the Air Medal and four Purple Hearts. He has long
been active in veteran's affairs. He can be reached at: banko@counterpunch.org
Weekend Edition
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Anderson
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Peter
Wolson, Ph. D.
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